Now that is over, here comes a new era!

So, I did it. I got through the 8th-grade exam, but the grades I got weren't exactly as expected. Like, I got 7.20 in Romanian and 8.65 in mathematics. I think you can very clearly see that I did much better in math compared to Romanian, which in my opinion is strange, since it has been "scientifically" demonstrated (by myself) that usually I get a higher grade in Romanian than math. But, I guess this was a strange situation.

Either way, I am more than pleased with my results, since they are higher than what I was expecting (especially in math, because as for Romanian... I don't even want to talk about it).

Now there's still a big step that I need to take to be done with all of this school stuff, and that is picking a high school! Now the problem here is that at the middle school I attended (and I still am there to some extent right now), I've made some promises, some big ones in my opinion. For example, one of them was to a retired teacher, promising that I would help him with the school's theater stage. Now, while dodging such promises might seem like an easy dodge to some, unfortunately, I have something called empathy, which is kind of holding me back from leaving. Besides that, I also have another stupid fear about leaving, and that is abandoning the friend that I've made along the way. But at the same time, I realize that I can still communicate with him even if we aren't in the same classroom, so that fear is completely unjustified. So, I guess it's more of a F.O.M.O. (fear of missing out) than an actual fear.

Now, which high school do I actually want? Well, because I want to go to a pretty beefy university in Amsterdam. Yeah, I really want to leave Romania and everything related to it behind eventually, because I really want to move to The Netherlands. Which in my opinion is a better-off country than Romania in all fields.

Anyways!

So, basically I want to do much better in life, and the profile that my middle school offers is a humanities/philosophy one, which is not recommended by the university I want to eventually get into. Instead, the university recommends a mathematics/computer science profile, which is essentially non-existent at my current school. And that means that if I want to follow my dream, I will need to change schools. Now sadly, I don't know which one I should apply to yet, but I will discuss that with my mom in the days that follow.

As for how long this process will take, well, it depends. If I choose to remain at the high school my middle school is offering, I would be done by the 10th of July. But if I choose not to, then say goodbye to half of my summer break! Since the bureaucracy in Romania is so bad, I need to basically wait another month until I find out if I was accepted into the high school or not.

I will make sure to post an update once I get into a high school, but I will not say the name of it for privacy reasons. But until then, I hope you're having a wonderful summer wherever you are!

The end of an era

 Today is the 11th of June 2026, as of writing this post I am at school. But that is not important at the moment...

Now what do I mean by "The end of an era"? Well, the national evaluation (also known in Romanian as "evaluarea națională") is in about 11 days. And for these passed 3-5 days I've cried a lot, but not for the reason you've might expect. It's not like I'm not prepared for this exam, is only that I don't really have a choice for my high school and that I won't see my current classmates in the autumn when school will start again.

I don't think that I am the only one going through this "pain", but for me, it seems strange because we aren't in 12th grade to say that we've had so many moments together. Now this may be debatable because not all of us have the same opinion regarding this topic, but for me nonetheless is strange.

Fortunately, someone's parent decided that it would be awesome to have a little notebook in which we wrote notes to each other. Now some of them were like this: "I hope you will pass the exam and have success in life". But, some of them are more elaborat, explaining events and other things that we've gotten through. This was a good idea, since we consider that most of us would go on different paths.

Now as I mentioned, I'm really in the fog when it comes to what high school I want to go at. But we will see after the exam! After all, I will see after the exam since I want to get a 8 or above because I made a I made a deal with my mom. Where if I get a 8 or above, I will get a Google Pixel 10 Pro and a Framework 16. So, fingers crossed!

Something strange happened...

 Today, 21st of May 2026, marked the last day for the special tests that we're requested to enter the high school I want. And when I finished with the modeling test, I saw my Romanian techer together with the IT teacher, with the sports teacher... Basically with every day teachers that I encounter on a daily basis.

Now, here comes the "incident". I don't know if she was joking or not, but my Romanian techer said that I've done a bad job when it came to my Romanian exam, which I have done orally. Now my first reason was... I'm not even trying to hide this, but I burst in tears, right in front of my teachers.

Now it may seem silly, but I am a very emotional person. And in that moment I did not care of what the people around me we're thinking. I was feeling hopeless in that moment, because I prepared only for a high school, that high school being the one I'm trying to get in. And if I really got a bad grade on my oral exam, then my dreams are basically dead.

Now, what do I mean by "if". Well, at the high school I want to get in there are like 147 students trying to enter. And considering that every student had about half a hour (without including the oral part) to write on a piece of paper the answers to the questions, this exam had to be split in 3 days (Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday). With students attending from 8 AM, all the way through 6 PM. Which if we use a bit of common sense, me attending the exam on Tuesday (the second day for the exam) and considering that we are all humans (we get tired, have to eat etc.), the rate at which my Romanian teacher correct the assignments must have been a unnatural number for a human being.

So, I'm just saying that this might be just a badly made joke at the end of the day. Which, I guess I will pass it out as a "unholy joke".