The people around me started to change...

 A classmate of mine just got accepted into art school, and that means there will be a place for someone else to transfer into my class.

Now I don't know if we'll see my classmate again, but one thing is for sure, that there will be someone else to come. Of course I'm a little bit sad of this, but let's be real, I'm depressed of absolutely everything lately. She was a pretty good classmate if I think about it, and she has potential in art, maybe someday I'll see her in an art contest or something.

As for this day, it was pretty messed up... This morning me and my classmates watched a movie named "La vita è bella", which was about Jewish people during World War 2, and this was also the end for the history epoch (in the school I'm in, this is the first class for 2 hours, 8 AM - 10 PM), which for some reason it's always sad when it ends. Then for the next 2 hours, our teaches had enough and let us outside. After having fun for 2 hours, came Romanian, where we we're supposed to give a reading sheet, and I didn't make it, so I tried getting around it, but I failed. After Romanian came the computer class, where we were left outside and to go home early.

Now that I got home, I've seen the message that my classmate is transferring to another school and started writing this post. The reason for why I'm sad is because I didn't get to know her better, and that's because I was shy.

Also, this was the day I got rid of my parrot... my mom said that it needs to go, it needs to find a new home, and I'm sad because of this too. Seeing a beloved animal becoming 100 RONs, it's just sad to me.

This is also the day when I'll get rid of my turtle too, and again it's very emotional to me seeing that this is the path I have to take, but I don't have any other option.

I will keep you updated about my turtle, and also here's the last picture of the parrot.

Why I am not active on my blog

 Hello everyone, it's been a while since I haven't posted something on here.

First, I am fine, I had some tests and things going on in my life. I will try to post something on YouTube, but I am out of ideas... maybe you could help me with some.

Other than that, I can't say much... only that I have started to develop a nostalgia for my depression, which was 1 year ago. Back then I was having nostalgia for the 2000s stuff, like the Wii, Frutiger Aero, and a lot of that happiness that everyone seemed to have back then.

So, now I am stuck in a limbo, I am nostalgic for the 2000s times right now, but at the same time I am not because I did everything that I could to live the 2000s back in 2024.

Now is 2025, I would like to relive 2024, but I know that being nostalgic will make me depressed, and being depressed will make me to don't give a thing about this life. Then I'll start being tired all the time, and not active in life, at school, etc.

But this year I said that it will be my year, so don't aspect much activity on YouTube or on my website.

I am angry, but at the same time sad...

 My grandpa from my mom, goes to bars at least once a day. But today was different.

I was making a bed for him with my mom, and of course, he didn't want to help or do something. This wasn't even a moment; it happens every time. Anyway, when I was finishing the bed, he left the house, I thought that he was at the bar, and guess what, he was. But I wasn't imagining how worst it looks or stuff like that, so we stopped in front of the bar, witch for some reason in right in front of a school. And we called him, because he didn't answer my grandma's call or my mom's call the first time, after answering the call he came outside, and I was angry at him, for waning me and my siter at him and not caring a bit about us.

I said to him that if he dies, I will not come to his funeral, or anything like that.

Then I remembered that I had a grandpa who actually cared about me, that was my mom's boyfriend dad. I never got to know him any better other than his name or that his birthday was around 1 December.

I actually miss him as a person, because if I got the chance to know him better, maybe I wold replace him with my grandpa.

But sadly he passed at the start of the month...

My turtle just died today...

 I had 2 turtles, a small one and a big one. The small one was mscule and the big one was femaile, just today I found my small turtle dead, I think it died last night or even today. At least I still have my big one, but still I have some fun memories whit it!

Here is a picture of the turtures that I have taken around 2 years ago, and this hits difrent much more difrent than my bird that died around 1 year ago...

Maybe, thats what my dream from 2 days ago was trying to say. To let the past be the past and see the future. As I am writing this post, I have put my turtule to eat and it seems to be sad, it dosen't want to eat or do anything. Just walking in the wather and staring in the distance.

I don’t know what I feel…

 Hi everyone, in this post I will talk about a topic that was on my mind this night. I can say that I had a fight with my mom, but yet I can’t…

Because school it’s starting in a couple of days, I have decided to start talking more and more with my classmates. I was talking to then in the summer, but still it wasn’t the same thing.

Recently my mom saw that I started listening to music, and because I was listening on a iPhone 5S, she gave me her old iPhone 7 from work. I transferred the music over to the new iPhone, and then I had a thought… “Why I don’t replace my phone with this?” and I am not a Apple fan or something like that, I just saw the advantages and the disadvantages as the days past by.

I didn’t know what to choose, to transfer or not?

Then I thought that maybe my classmates will have a idea on what to do. I have just now realized that I have gave to many chances to my classmates, and still they haven’t trusted me like I trust them, I feel like I am used by them. So, I send the message on what should I do and they sad to buy a new iPhone!

You know what is the problem with that? I am not rich at all, and why should I buy a new iPhone when this works perfectly fine. Okay I don’t get Google Chrome or Microsoft Edge, but who needs that when Firefox exists? There are other apps that work with this like Google Maps, Progressbar 95 (my favorite game), Microsoft Authenticator, and WhatsApp too! I don’t feel like buying a new iPhone just for the “popularity”!

And now I am stuck in a limbo, I want to switch, but at the same time no!

I like the home button on the iPhone, but I know that it will disappear slowly but surely!

Sorry if this post was long or hard to read, but I really want to get this out of me.

I finished working on a video that it will be up soon, and I have another one in the makings, so wish me luck!

I am depressed...

 My mom found out that some random guy from Sweden messaged me on Skype, and he was looking for NSFW stuff, but I reported him on Skype and to the Swedish police. Everything was great... but I screenshotted the conversation and send it to my friends from school, and he got mad, so mad that he treated me by throwing my phone in the toilet (she didn't).

Now I am a little bit depressed, because I still don't have someone to talk to, I can go to the church to tell the pastor there everything that upsets me, but still... It isn't the same as talking to a friend or someone from you family, I could talk with my mom, but she's occupied all of the time...

The subsects in questions are me being a furry, or some random things that my mind makes, and that is why I made this blog. To tell you guys about my life and maybe someone will archive it and then maybe this post will be considered as history, but only the time will tell...

Right now, I am listening to "Темная ночь" by Mark Bernes, like this is how depressed I am.